It was nothing they did, it was all me. I was just sick of being ignored even though I've been trying to hang out. Time and time again I'd get no response so eventually I just gave up in a bit of a huff. Of course, they had no idea about this because it was all about me. They might have noticed we hadn't hung out in a while, but it clearly didn't bother them as much as it did me.
So why was I making such a big deal out of it (privately at least)? I don't know. Perhaps I wanted some attention. Perhaps I just needed to have a hissy fit. Either way, it only ended up hurting myself and now I feel a right fool for doing it. I have decided to just give up on this little tantrum and keep trying. I don't like to harbour ill feelings towards anyone, it just eats you up inside. Let it go and you're a better person for it.
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Written by banh at 1:10 AM | Comments (0)
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There's been something I've been meaining to tell you for a while, my dear blog. It has been playing on my mind but I just never got around to putting it in words.
You see, it's about a girl.
[Digression: Wouldn't that be a cool name for a blog? I would do it but then I'd feel obligated to write mostly about girl problems, and it'd be slightly awkward documenting all my girl problems]
I don't know if I liked her or not. I wished there was a more clear-cut, definitive way of finding out but I haven't come across one yet. But whether or not I like her is irrelevant because she is currently attached to another person. This is the main problem. I have promised myself not to fall for girls with boyfriends because I know that there is no worse feeling than to have someone betray you like that, althought not first hand, it was just kind of a realisation.
And that's about it really. I mean, she's a great person. She's funny, sassy, sweet but still has a bit of a bite. But I think it's just time to start looking for more available girls, otherwise I shall forever be known as the guy who likes to cut lunches. I guess one of the positive things I can fall back on is that I'm not really that close friends with her, so maybe it's just a passing crush.
Oh and bee to the tee double u, different girl. That was just silly.
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Written by banh at 1:40 PM | Comments (1)
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that'd be an awesome title for an album.
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Andrew the Huang, at 11:39 AM
I'm not embarrassed to say I listen to girly, pop music. Why? Because I like it, and I'm not the only one. Right now, it's all about Lady GaGa, Katy Perry and Lily Allen.
Going on past evidence, I really shouldn't like Lady GaGa. However I'm very susceptible to repitition and I have listened to her so many times I can't help but like her. I like her beats... No but seriously, her music is good for a pick-me-up. It's hard not to bop along to her. And let it be said that her music is not good because of her lyrics.
Katy Perry is my favourite among the three. Hot N Cold, I Kissed a Girl and Waking Up In Vegas are all fun songs. However my favourite is Thinking Of You. It's such a heart wrenching song, but it's also a morally suspect one. Basically, it's her wailing (in the nicest possible way) about some fantastic guy that she let go or drove away, and now she's stuck with a dud. What makes it great is that it is what everyone in the world wants to hear, that whoever has wronged them made the wrong choice. Her album is also composed nicely because it starts off fun, goes into the slow ballads but picks up again to finish on a slightly angry note.
Lyrically, Lily Allen's album is the best. Her songs aren't tragic stories from her own life or anything of that ilk, they are more pop-py with a good amount of humour. It took me a couple listenings to really get into her music because it all could be described as sounding a bit the same, but once you slow down and listen to what she's saying, it can be very enjoyable.
Will this be a passing phase? Hopefully. I only listen to these albums in full at home. On my phone is still mostly Arctic Monkeys and their lovely accents. Seriously, I love those guys. And if I had the effort, I'd get into The Clash too. But for now, the Monkeys will do me just fine.
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I really try not to decide a day is good or bad before its over, because there is always time to be wrong. Sometimes you think one thing, but then whoever/whatever controls the universe decides to slap you in the face.
Today wasn't one of those days. Today was fairly crappy from the get go and it did not necessarily get a whole lot better. First of all it was like 5 degrees this morning. Then it continued to be 5 degrees for the rest of the morning. Also I had my chemistry exam today, but I don't quite count that as a bad thing.
So I get ready and leave the house. The next crap thing to happen was that it was still about 9 degrees outside the house. I needed to pop into Coles to buy some water and an eraser so I did that. Going into Coles was nice, because it was relatively warm in there. However when I was waiting in the line, I saw the clock read 1.10. Now my train was it 1.14, however my watch read 1.00. I looked back and forth between the two, and used my phone as the decider. Unfortunately for me, the clock at Coles was correct. For some stupid reason my watch was 10 minutes late.
So we'll count that as 3 bad things, it being cold, it being cold and my watch being slow. Next thing was when I left Coles, it was still freezing. So that's four things. I did manage to make the train, after some (graceful) running/galloping.
Nothing really bad happened until I got to the Caufield Racecourse. It was still absolutely freezing but that's not the worst of it. I don't know whether it was just really windy or it was the design of the buildings, but the wind while standing outside the room was ferocious. Ferociously icy. In all seriousness, without even a iota of doubt, I had never been colder in my life. And to cap it all off, when I was eating my museli bar, half of it fell on the ground and I didn't get to finish it.
The exam itself wasn't that bad, it just took me a while to realise that. I thought it went really bad because I couldn't finish the darn thing because I didn't remember how to do a few questions. I was really beating myself up about it and was fairly down, in my own way, until I realised that if we ignore the ones I couldn't do, I should still be able to get at least 70% on that exam. Which hopefully can push me into the HD territory for the final mark. And really, that's all I want.
However when I was still upset, all I could think about was getting home and cooking something. When I get down, I like to cook. So I did. I made some shortbread. It's becoming an easy thing to make now, I just have to fine-tune the flavour and texture.
Written by banh at 11:35 PM | Comments (1)
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heads up banhy; i had a fairly below average day today as well
catchya tmr!
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, at 1:22 AM
Back in April, I wrote a post talking about becoming a more traditional full back. Since then, so many things have changed.
It was quickly realised by Jin that I would not have the stamina, pace or confidence to play as left back. Even though he didn't exactly tell me any of those things, he pushed me into playing the centre back role and I have not looked back since.
The first time I played centre back was against Western in the friendly. At first I was shitting myself but I didn't really have a good enough run to get a feel of it. The next time was coming off the bench against Alpha Q29 in our sole victory for the season. I came on for a cramping Phan and I thought it was to be a straight switch, however Jin told me to go to centre back and that he'd do the running up and down the wing. I didn't argue because... well... I have no authority in the team. It went ok, I did find it slightly more to my liking.
The next time, and my first real crack, was against DC United when I got my first start for the season. I might as well have been playing rugby, I was that lost, but I think I was able to hold my own. Since then, I have started against Western and now Asset 1, both as centre back, and both because Peng didn't rock up on time.
Each time I play, Nelson has always been my senior partner, so I just tried my best to stay with him. However his problem is that he tends to sit much too deep. For some odd reason, I prefer playing a high back line so that we might be able to lend a hand to the midfield if absolutely necessary. So when Nelson was out last week and I was paired with Ming Gao... ooohhh it was a party. I made sure we stayed at the half way line and it was a ball. The ball was passed back to us and we were able to re-distribute. I had never felt more in the game (except when we were getting bombarded by DC). What we didn't realise was during this period, they only had nine players on the field.
So there it is. I now have a well defined role in the team, as the third string centre back. Perhaps one day, I might be able to challenge Jin for his spot. One day...
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Written by banh at 7:28 PM | Comments (0)
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