Part 2 of a draft of a post I wrote way back in '08 when I was struggling getting over being given the "let's just be friends" line by Felita. I think it's pretty damn funny reading back on this.
Ok, time for the second installation. We left off at the point where I had just finished cramming as much into a couple of minutes as I could to Jin, and that is where we shall recommence.
I don't remember whether I had finished or not when Anna came over to say hi, because by then the group had seen me talking to Jin. Sam had already sauntered over in his sexy-walk, so I think he would have caught the back-end of the story. Anyway, Anna came and the rest of the group followed. Had to say goodbye to Jin and Victor and then we went to eat! Also, I put my plan into motion, Operation Ignore.
I don't know how much of a plan it was, because it was pretty generic and vague. However I needed some way to handle it. So on the walk to the restaurant, I said hi to everyone, well to Willius at least. I talked and laughed with Anna about goodness knows what. When we were trying to work out our seats at the restaurant, there was a funny little interplay between Sam and me. The table was set up so that it was just this one long thing with people seated opposite each other. As there were 9 people, it was designated that Felita sit at the head of the table. All the girls settled to her right and the boys to her left. However there was a vacant seat directly next to her, Willius was in the vicinity whereas I was way down at the other end of the table. Sam says to me "Banh, that's yours", or something along those lines, while gesturing to that seat. I don't remember whether I just mouthed it or if I actually said it out loud, but I replied one of either "Get f***ed", "Go f*** yourself" or "F*** off". I think I did get my message across to him though, so Willius sat there. I was had Tim on my left, Wilfred opposite me and Anna diagonally to my left.
Dinner was pretty fun. I don't actually like eating in large groups, I'm a shy eater. So I nibbled and spent most of my time talking and stuffs. Luckily Tim ate bucketloads, so he ate my share without realising. It was really good fun just having fun with all these people, however I was starting to come down off the redbull I slammed down before meeting everyone. I was buggered from cricket and it was really starting to show. At one stage, I had zoned out of the conversation and was just focusing on ripping up my napkin. It started off innocently enough, I ripped off the over hanging pieces so that I could have a perfect triangle, but then I just started ripping through the really thick bits to see if I could. Whilst deep in concentration, Felita tried to engage me by mentioning my activities. However I was still in ignoring mode so I just smiled and continued. I think the worst bit was then Judy said something about it and I laughed at that.
We eventually left the restaurant, it was still early so we went in search of something to do. We ended up at Melbourne Central under the clocks again, the group split up momentarily. Some people went to the toilet, some talked to other people. I took the opportunity to reply to a message I received from Jackie. Anna saw me texting and I asked her if she had anything to say to Jackie, she just said hi and I conveyed her message. The group... regrouped and we went to the crepe shop to get some. I took one look and I knew I could afford to skip all those extra calories. Anna and Judy complained of the cold so we waited outside while people bought crepes. I got a reply from Jackie saying she missed Anna, I showed Anna this and got the best "awwwwwww" I've heard in ages. Being the good middle-man, I relayed the message to Jackie. Unfortunately though, Jackie had to go straight home from work so she couldn't swing by.
Eventually we decided to go to King Pin to play pool or something. King Pin was fun. I played a game, massive rust. I struggled hard. The annoying thing was that no one else did, it was just me. So I gave up after that. Time to step up Operation Ignore with phase 2. I had decided long ago that I'd buy a beer, for no other reason than to spite her. However one cannot drink alone because that's sad and desperate. Sam couldn't because he had to drive and no one else really wanted to, so I roped in Anna. It took some convincing, and for some reason Sam wanted her to drink more than she or I did, so much so that he even bought it for her. You hear that, Anthony? He bought her a drink! I expect beatdowns. Anyway, back on topic. Not much happened. I watched some people play Daytona, play pool, play air hockey. Everyone was dying at 10pm, just when I was at my highest. It happened again, just when everyone is about to sleep I'm at my awakest. So people departed, all the Glenny line people were the first to go. So it was Judy, Sam, Anna, Wilfred and me left behind. We all walked Anna to her mum's car because we're so nice, we also missed the train because of it.
Waiting for half an hour for the train late at night is made easier by friends. Train ride was fine. I noticed Sam's eyes were bloodshot as all heck. Judy's were too, but it came in periods of bloodshot and then slightly less bloodshot, before really bloodshot. I think mine would have been too, but I couldn't see. Wilfred's weren't. Freak. Train ride got a little weird after Wilfred got off. I'll just leave it at that.
On the walk home, I replayed the night over in my mind. It was only then did I realise that by ignoring her all night, what a jerk that made me. Luckily for me, she was on MSN that night and things were discussed. Many things were discussed. I think that because of those discussions, I may have gone backwards a bit. I thought I was doing swell, but that night I took a few too many backward steps, yardage I don't think I have regained yet. Eventually my laptop battery was dying so we said our farewells, not knowing when we'd talk next. I tell myself not to care.
Thursday was the quick debriefing I gave to Jackie. I told her about my ignoring and although she agreed it wasn't the nicest thing to do, it certainly does feel good. She said that it gives you the power, and it really did feel like that. I may have been kidding myself but I saw her look over a couple times at me. Looks that further encouraged me to continue with the plan. However the debriefing was over all too soon as she had to go and I was using the home phone because my mobile has no credit left. I still have many more things to talk to her about though. So remind me to do it next time.
And the end was on Friday. While we were warming up for futsal, Jono La asks me how I am. I reply with the customary "I'm fine". But he probes deeper, knowing I'm not. Unfortunately for him, before we start playing futsal is not the time to discuss it so I insist I'm fine. I appreciate the thought though. And that's why we love Jono La. That and the fact he gave me keeping gloves! I'm very bad at accepting presents. Love that Jono La kid.
I apologise for these two essays I have written, for their grammar (or lack thereof) and general rubbishness. I know I have been surprisingly candid, and it will most likely bite me on the ass. Every fibre in my body tells me I shouldn't have said so much. However... If it's not said here, then it'll eat away at me over the next couple of months. This blog is my main method of release. The fact that some of my friends read it (Hi Jono, Nigel, Marcus and possibly Tim) means they know more than I'll ever tell them. I also use that to my advantage, so it balances out.